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Alittle About Me [30 Nov 2005|10:21am] [ mood | ditzy ] Hi My name is Felicia. I am known as the biggest downriver whore in Michigan.I like to steal other peoples boyfriends and fuck a bunch of guys all at the same time.I am a two-faced bitch,that loves to be friends with people to there face but when not around i love to talk major shit about them. I have been known to have many std's and i love to spread them to a bunch of people. Well thats alittle about me if you would like to know anymore please im me at xx felicia lynn.I hope you all enjoyed learning alittle about me. -<3-FeFe 4 __

[23 Sep 2005|05:55pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Donkey Kong ] Umm... I might get my ex step dad's 95' Jimmy 4x4, thing. for 3,500 dollars.. =0) He might let me buy it for like 500 up front and then like 100 dollars a month.. so im super excited.. Hes thinking about it and I gotta call him back like tomorrow or something.. so that makes me like super excited.. and then after i get all that stuff straightened.. me and mi madre are gonna go and get phones.. like a family plan thing.. cuz we both have the cell phones.. but we got the pay as you go phones.. and their really stupid and expensive.. so after the car thing.. thats next on my to do list.. and then what else is there...? start saving and then take my GED and then start school.. I cant wait to start nursing school.. Im excited for that too.. But yeah Im gonna go to Kristen's and were gonna go to the gym.. so yeah.. awww, Maddy and Joey are playing Mario.. the one with Yoshi.. and Maddys controller isnt plugged in and Joey said it was.. but he was tricking her.. and its so cute, shes playing with a controller she thinks but if you look like a foot in front of her you can clearly see that the things not plugged in.. lol.. kids.. their adorable. But im out.. like donkey kong.. lol their playing that now so i thought i would say that.. peace niggas/ __

26 dollars and the keys to what? [19 Sep 2005|11:47pm] [ mood | grumpy ] [ music | Broken Sunday + Number 6 ] [ ] I am bisexual [x] I've consumed alcohol. [x] I've snuck out of your house. [x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. [ ] I listen to political music. [ ] I collect comic books. [x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. [ ] I am keeping a secret from the world. [x] I watch the news. [ ] I own over 5 rap CDs [ ] I own an iPod or MP3 [x] I own something from Hot Topic [x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes [x] I don't kill bugs. [x] I curse regularly. [ ] I paid for that cell phone ringtone. [ ] I am a sports fanatic [x] I have "x"s in my screen name. [x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation. [ ] I love Spam [x] I have a job. [x] I love Martha Stewart. [ ] I am in love with love. [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. [x] I love to laugh. [ ] I smoke a pack a day [x] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower. [x] I loved Go Ask Alice. [x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick [ ] I can't swallow pills. [x] I eat fast food weekly. [ ] I have many scars. [x] I've been out of this country [x] I believe in ghosts [x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room [ ] I am really ticklish. [ ] I see a therapist [ ] I love white chocolate [x] I bite my nails [x] I am comfortable with being me. [x] I play computer games/video games [x]I'm single [x] Saw a shooting star [ ] I had a Surgery [x] Gone out in public in your pajamas [ ] I have Kissed a Stranger [ ] Hugged a stranger [ ] Been in a fist fight [x]Been arrested [ ] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose [x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator [ ] Made out in an elevator [x] Swore at your parents [x] Kicked a guy where it hurts [x] Been close to love [ ] Been to a casino [ ] Been skydiving [ ] Broken a bone [ ] Skipped school [x] Done a split [ ] Gotten stitches [ew] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour [x] Bitten someone [x] Been to Niagara Falls [x] Gotten the chicken pox [x] Kissed a member of the same sex [ ] Crashed into a friend's car [ ] Been to Japan [x] Ridden in a taxi [x] Shoplifted [x] Been fired [x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back [x] Stole something from your job [ ] Gone on a blind date [x] Lied to a friend [ ] Had a crush on a teacher/sub [ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans [ ] Been to Europe [ ] Slept with a co-worker [ ] Been married [ ] Gotten divorced [ ] Had children [ ] Saw someone dying [ ] Been to Africa [x] Driven over 400 miles in one day (( I think? )) [x] Been to Canada [ ] Been to Mexico [x] Been on a plane [x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show [ ] Thrown up in a bar [X] Eaten Sushi. [ ] Been snowboarding [ ] Been Skiing [ ] Met someone in person from the internet [ ] Been moshing at a rock show [ ] Been to a motor cross show [ ] Lost a child [ ] Gone to college [x] Done hard drugs [x] Taken painkillers [x] Had someone cheat on you [x] Had someone tell you that they like you a lot & you spend an evening with them & from the next day on they speak only two words to you [x] MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!! Yep... I got bored.. so there ya go. Im really tired.. I think I have insomnia.. because no matter what it is.. I cannot fall asleep unless I lay down for like 3 hours... and then I wake up like every 20 minutes when I finally do fall asleep.. But I dont know.. maybe its because.. I dont really know what its from.. but yeah. I get paid tomorrow.. and Im super excited.. because on Wednesday, Im going to Secretary of State.. after we drop the kids off at school.. and then I have Friday.. and Sunday off.. I dont know if Kristen has to work on Friday.. but if you dont.. were gonna go out to eat or something.. like Applebees.. because I want the fajitas con sizzle.. lol andddd were gonna go shopping.. because its seriously needed.. maybe not SHOPPING.. but like.. browsing.. ya know? yeahh... I need to get some new makeup.. and some new work shoes.. because the shoes I stole from kristen are too heavy.. Im gonna get some cheap little tennis shoes and then I gotta find a dress... and shoes.. and then the paycheck before homecomming.. im gonna get my nails done.. so yeah. oh yeah.. I have to give my mom like 50 bucks for rent..and then I think I wanna get Maddy a new pair of shoes too.. hers all old looking.. oh yeah.. I forgot to do the laundry.. I have to find her something cute to wear tomorrow because its picture dayyyyyyy.. Im so excited.. I cant wait untill I get my license and I get to take her to school and stuff.. its gonna be fun.. to walk her to her classes with her little backpack.. aww.. my babies getting so big.. =0( my ex step dad.. guy thing.. told me that he was gonna sell me his Jimmy 4x4 thing for 3500 too.. so I need to saveeeeee... which it wont be hard to save 4 thousand..if I put away like 150 every check..that would be good I think.. But yeah, I think Im done typing because my fingers hurt and Im gonna go try to get ahold of my Kristen Nikole and see if shes gonna pick me up from work tomorrow or not <3<3 3 __

[12 Sep 2005|08:18pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | autoReverse + Story about a Complication ] oh yeah.. Im going to homecoming with Kenny.. and I dont really hate my job as much as I thought... October 8th w00t w00t 2 __

[12 Sep 2005|06:06pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Jimmy Eat World ] i hate my mom. i hate my mom. i hate my mom. i hate my mom. i hate my mom. i hate my mom. She kicked me out of the house and changed the locks because i was being a "smartass". Im always a fucking smartass to her and shes never kicked me out before. So I need to get an apartment.. Because I cant stand to depend on people anymore. I need to get my license and my car, and then get my own place. because I cant fucking take it anymore.. I cant fucking take getting kicked out every two weeks, because my mom is fucking crazy.. I really need to sit down and think about my money situation and maybe Ill start doing some doubles at work and bust my ass to get my shit straight... and then on top of that I need to get my GED and I wanted to start school next fall.. that probably wont happen though if i have to go get my own place... maybe my brother will want to live with me? I dont know.. but I know I cant do it by myself.. an apartment, bills, and a car.. on my $8.60 an hour.. I dont think so.. I dont know.. It kinda felt good to vent. Im sorry if I bugged anyone with that. =0( 1 __

[07 Sep 2005|11:29am] Well... :) __

[19 Aug 2005|08:09pm] [ mood | creative ] [ music | fucking Finding Nemo.. ] 1* First grade teacher's name: Mr..... Something. 2* Last word you said: "we live on front porches and swing life away" 3* Last song you sang/listened to: Rise Agaist + Swing life away 4* Last person you hugged: probably my little sister Madison 5* Last thing you laughed at: Probably myself... 6* Last time you said I dont remember: I dont remember... hey.. right now.. does that count?! 7* Last time you cried: When Kristen called me a slut. 9* What color socks are you wearing: white baseball socks, with red stripes on em 10* What's under your bed: I dont know if I have a bed or not.. but I couldnt tell you anyways. 11* What time did you wake up today: 10ish. 12* Current taste: a lemon-lime popsicle. 13* Current hair: my mom scrunched it and said I looked like Hilary Duff. 15* Current annoyance: these kids Im watching. 16* Current longing: um.. I kinda want a cigarette? and a Cherry slurpee.. so im longing for that 17* Current desktop background: its pink with stars. awww how cute. 18* Current worry: getting my physical for work before wednesday. 19* Current hate: umm.. kids. 20* Current favorite article of clothing: um.. yeah I dont know.. 21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: Eyes. 22* Last CD that you listened to: Yellowcard. 23* Favorite place to be: anywhere.. I love going places. 24* Least favorite place: my house. 25* Time you wake up in the morning: it all depends. 26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: hmm.. probably drums. 27* Favorite color: green.. I changed it 28* Do you believe in an afterlife: no 29* How tall are you: 5'3" 30* Current favorite word/saying: "whatever" 31* Favorite book: what are those? 32* Favorite season: the end of summer.. like when the leaves start to fall and all that good stuff. 33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: no one.. their in my past for a reason, why would I want to talk to them ~Future~ 35* Where do you want to go for college? Wayne County Community College.. oh yeah. 36* What is your career going to be like: I dont know.. 37* How many kids do you want: like 2.. maybe just one.. *HAVE YOU EVER...* 39* Said "I love you" and meant it: yes. 40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish: how do you get in a fight with a fish? 41* Been to New York: Ive been to Niagra Falls.. that kinda should count.. 42* Been to Florida: yes mam.. I lived there with Rania Lynn. 43* Been to California: NO..but Im going.. to hang out with Shelby. 44* Been to Hawaii: pssh. 45* Been to Mexico: no... 46* Been to China: um... no.. 48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: I honestly dont remember *RANDOM* 52* Do you have a crush on someone: yes. 53* What book are you reading now?: I don't read books. 54* Worst feeling in the world: when u want a cigarette.. you keep on eating and eating and eating... 55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? I dont know.. I usually look at the clock and then go back to bed. then Oh I know. then i say " I really want a cigarette" 56* How many rings before you answer: it would help if I had a phone.. but.. usually 2. 57* Future daughter's name: It was gonna be Kylee Nikole.. but.. I dont know... I'll think about that when the time comes 58* Future son's name: lol It was gonna be Timothy Michael.. But.. Im not having kids anytime soon so yeah.. 59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no.. 60* If you could have any job you wanted what would it be: at a Pet store.. making like 45 dollars an hour.. 61* Wish you were here: where? 62* College plans: I dont know.. I have to get my GED first.. 63* Piercings: my ears, belly button, and my nose.. soon to be my lip. *THE EXTRA STUFF* 64* Do you do drugs: nope 65* Do you drink: lol Do I?! 67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Whatever kinds inthe shower.. I guess. 68* What are you most scared of: nothing really... being mawled by a lamb.. 69* What clothes do you sleep in: a shirt and my underware when Im at home.. 70* Who is the last person that called you: Amanda Panda 71* Where do you want to get married: I dont know.. Not in a Court House.. thats for sure. 72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: I dont know.. I pretty much like myself and dont really feel the need to change anything. 73* Who do you really hate: I dont hate anyone. 74* Been In Love: I thought I was.. 75* Are you timely or always late: I like being early... i hate being late. 76* Do you have a job: yes mam. 77* Do you like being around people: yea.. cuz im a dork. 78* Best feeling in the world: Im not sure... 79* Are you for world peace: no.. I think that we should all be mean and jerks to everyone.. 80* Are you a health freak: no way.. Im farrrr from that. 81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: no, not really.. 82* Do you want someone you don't have?: Im not really worried about that.. 83* Are you lonely right now: no.. 84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: lol.. umm.. I dont know. 85* Do you want to get married: yea.. eventually.. 86* Do you want kids? didnt we just go over this?? *IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU... 87* Cried: no 88* Bought something: cigarettes? 89* Gotten Sick: Nope.. I kinda have a headache.. if that counts.. 90* Sang: I was a minute ago!! 91* Said I Love You: to mi Madre.. and Madison. 92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: umm.. yes.. and i have? 93* Met Someone: lol.. umm...I dont remember. 94* Moved on: yea... but that was wayy before 48 hours ago. 95* Talked To Someone: no I spent the past 2 days in silence..yea, Ive talked to people 96* Had A Serious Talk: me?.. serious?? I dont think so. 97* Missed Someone: yeah. 98* Hugged Someone: yeah.. 99* Yelled at Someone: yeah.. these stupid brat kids. 100* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: lol Bam Margara... we went to mc donalds.. 3 __

[19 Aug 2005|06:12pm] [ mood | jubilant ] [ music | Broken Sunday + Untill I Break ] I GOT A JOB!!!! Finally.. I got a job.. at Rivergate Convalesent Home.. Woo. Im gonna be working in the kitchen from 3pm-8pm.. which isnt bad.. those are really good hours.. and then eventually Ill work more.. like during the day and stuff... so Im excited for that.. Im getting paid more than the other nursing home I worked at... so im gonna buy a CAR.. Its Intense.   Nothing new has really been going on.. Kristens mom was outta town for a week and I got wasted pretty much every single day.. I gained like 46 pounds.. but thats alright.. Umm.. I went to a couple shows with Kristen and Rick.. those were fun.. we seen Broken Sunday out in Brighton, and then we seen the Fantabulous Auto Reverse in Livonia.. at some summer reading thing.. and they had like raffles and there were little kids everywhere and it was awesome.. there was a really creepy guy there talking to all the kids.. he was a creepster.. UMMMMMMMMMM. yeah.. Nothing really is going on.   Im 18 now!! WOO HOO.. its exciting.. I can vote.. and buy cigarettes.. and play the lottery and go into Chuck E Cheese by myself.. and.. not that anyone but a creep would do that.. but who knows.. But I cant really ACUTALLY do any of that untill I get my I.d. which will be when I get paid.. Im gonna my license and stealing my moms car for a day.. I already told her and she laughed at me.. but im gonna steal it.. and go crusing.. F yeah... Ill prolly go buy cigarettes and a lottery thing.. just cause I can... yeah so I think Im done updating.. I have nothing else to talk about.. I have a headache and im watching 3 annoying ass kids.. so i think Im gonna go to sleep or something and let them do their thing.. lol.. no.. these kids would probably sneak outta the house and catch the city on fire.. so yeah.. Im actually gonna go watch finding nemo and wait for the pizza guy.   Hasta Leuago or however u spell it.. I was gonna put a heart.. but.. fuck hearts. >3  I made a fish instead. __

[07 Jul 2005|01:00pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | Emery + to whom it may concern ] In-fucking-sane... I decided to update my journal! How exciting!!!?? Right now Im at my beautiful Kristen Nikole's house.. shes at work.. So im bored =0( My fucking 18th Birthday is in 22 days!!! Im sooo excited.. Kristens making Jim throw us a party, lol. itll be sweet. Little Miss Kristen Nikole's Birthday is August 13th and for her birthday were going to the strip clubs.. lol its gonna be so awesome EMERY HAS A NEW CD COMMING OUT IF ANYONE CARES!!! Hmm.. so whats new.. I have like 3 jobs in mind.. But the main thing is me getting there so Im kinda waiting which 2 outta the three jobs im pretty sure I can get at any time because my neighbor knows people.. I might get a job at Malarkys when I turn 18 or at some Doctors office... then Me and Kristen Nikole are going to bartending school.. lol prolly not but Itd be so much fun My Moms painting a mural in some bar in Taylor.. I love her.. shes excited for it. I finally seen the Pacifier the other day.. but I couldnt really watch it because SOMEONE kept making fun of it... sayin Vin Desels gay.. hes not gay.. hes bi.. GOD but anyways I dont care because your the one who bought the movie.. so whos the gay one now!!? haha ya creepster. oh man.. Aaron just got home and he scared the shit outta me.. I thought it was a burglar.. Oh my fucking god! You know what I just realized!!!??? Im up before 4!!!!! lmao... I woke up at like 12:30 in the PM. fucking crazy. okay so other than that.. everythings going great.. I love my life right now.. Its awesome.. and I love my Little Miss Kristen Nikole to death.. shes fucking awesome..The circus is in town and the gazetts were dancing on my chest. lmao.. I seen my brother on the 4th of July and when I get a job me and him are gonna get an Apartment... maybe.. and um yeah.. I forgot what i was gonna say.. oh yeah.. he told me he was gonna take me to canada.. but.. no see hes retarted and doesnt think so im not going to canada but hes definitly 21 so i can see some beer or something in the future as a birthday gift =0) But yeah Im gonna go and cook something for Aaron to eat..and prolly smoke and call Jim and see what hes doing tonight andddd umm take a shower and stuff so holler. 3 __

[07 Apr 2005|04:55pm] [ mood | curious ] [ music | somet stupid ass car alarm ] I wont talk I wont breathe I wont move till you finally see That you belong with me You might think I dont look But deep inside In the corner of my mind Im attached to you Im weak Its true Cuz im afraid to know the answer Do you want me too? Cuz my heart keeps falling faster I've waited all my life To cross this line To the only thing thats true So I will not hide Its time to try Anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true You dont know what you do Everytime you walk into the room Im afraid to move Im weak Its true Im just scared to know the ending Do you see me too? Do you even know u met me? I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats true So I will not hide Its time to try anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true I know when I go ill be on my way to you The way thats true I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats true So I will not hide Its time to try anything to be with you All my life I've waited This is true 13 __

[03 Apr 2005|08:28pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | silvertide + heartstrong ] I'm still standing here, awkward and unaware As you scream the topic's closed, and slam down the telephone You swear that you still care But I'm still standing here confused and somewhat drawn My head's lost but I'm heartstrong (Yeah I'm heartstrong) You said you've been trying to hold on For oh so long I've been thinking that you might like to tag along And you came off so smooth with all your character flaws And I'm thinking about you and every night I call (Back into no one's arms, how could you leave this way) I'm still standing here, awkward and unaware As you scream the topic's closed, and slam down the telephone You swear that you still care But I'm still standing here confused and somewhat drawn My head's lost but I'm heartstrong (Yeah I'm heartstrong) And you've been trying to pick me up like a ghost from the past But you found that it's hard with your blood stained hands Yeah it's real hard to get a firm grip And every single minute that you think that your heart's too broke Then your mind kicks in and screams let 'em go 'cause I'm torn asunder with no hope And every night I fall (Back into no one's arms, how could you leave this way) I'm still standing here, awkward and unaware As you scream the topic's closed, and slam down the telephone You swear that you still care But I'm still standing here confused and somewhat drawn My head's lost but I'm heartstrong (Yeah I'm heartstrong) I just can't stand to see you smile From a picture frame And all I wanna do is touch your face And take you far away I'll take you far away I'm still standing here, awkward and unaware As you scream the topic's closed, and slam down the telephone You swear that you still care But I'm still standing here confused and somewhat drawn My head's lost but I'm heartstrong my head hurts =0( __

[01 Apr 2005|05:20pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Akon + Mr Lonely ] Sometimes I give in to sadness Sometimes I don't Doo doo doo doo At times I'm part of the madness Sometimes I won't Give in to you You see in a way I have been drifting down a river To nowhere And you've given me nothing But if you're ready to be my everything If you're ready to see it through this time And if you're ready for love then This I will bring But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time At times I feel myself smiling At times I'm not What's with the guilt that you styling baby Talk don't look good on you You see in a way I have been looking for a reason to go there And you're leading me nowhere And if you're ready to be my everything If you're ready to see it through this time And if you're ready for love then This I will bring But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time Are you waiting for a special occasion To give me your heart Cause I need a little confirmation To make a real start Don't wait till it's too late Are you ready to show me? Are you ready to love me? You see in a way I have been drifting down a river To nowhere And you're giving me nothing And if you're ready to be my everything If you're ready to see it through this time And if you're ready for love then This I will bring But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time And if you're ready to be Ready to be my everything And if you're ready to see it through this time If you're ready for love then baby This I will bring But I'm not gonna wait forever this time so everyone in my family is getting new damn fucking cars and I dont have one and im pissed.. I want a new car damnit. Mi Madre said i can drive it when I get my license though.. so thats SWEEETT I cant wait.. my brother got a new car and said i can never drive it.. hes gay.. But I LOVE MY BROTHER.. hes the bestest.. lol hes like the best protective brother in the entire world. umm.. My friend Bre'Anna is having a baby and I cant believe that.. Ive been friends with her since we were in fucking 3rd grade and now shes having a baby.. its nuts.. but im gonna spoil that little girl so much its not even funny.. And omg shes due at the end of July.. Whos birthdays at the end of July?? mine.. thats right.. maybe well have the same birthday and well be bonded... Her actual due date is the 2nd of August.. which is right by Haddads birthday so still.. whatever we could still have that bond.. but yeah.. thats pretty much all the good stuff going on in my life right now.. oh and I might get a job at best buy with my kristen nikole.. i just have to fill out an application.. like i should do it right now.. so im going to.. Wish me luck!! </3 __

when pigs fly and elephants nest in trees... [30 Mar 2005|04:51am] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | Yellowcard + Empty Apartment ] So everything with the kidney stones is goin good.. I guess.. I have to go to the hospital in like 3 weeks for a urine test and i have to get blood work done.. I dont have anymore Vicoden.. which makes me upset because If my stomach starts to hurt like that again Im gonna have to go back to the hospital and get another iv and everything.. =0(. I still need a damn job.. I might get one at Calders in Lincoln Park.. that kick ass ice cream place.. woo hoo.. they have the best banana ice cream in the world. Im gonna go to the mall and apply for like WetSeal and GadZooks.. thatll be a fun place to work.. Maybe I can work at Calders during the day and the mall at night.. I need to start saving money because I need a damn car!! because Im gonna be 18 in like 5 months.. and I really dont want to have my license if i dont even have a car.. cuz thats just gonna make me be like, oh.. yeah i have my license and i can drive anywhere I want to.. but i wouldnt have a car.. so i couldnt go anywhere.. yeah.. I dont know what else to update about.. I had a dream about the beach and the dead bird wing and the fire... but it doesnt matter anymore.. goodluck in life. 3 __

[24 Mar 2005|02:23pm] [ mood | damn kidney stones. ] She said life's a lot to think about sometimes When you're living in between the lines And all the stars they sparkle and shine everyday He said life's so hard to move in sometimes When it feels like I'm towin' the line And no one even cares to ask me why I feel this way I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone That's the same road, the same road that I am on He said life's a lot to think about sometimes When you keep it all between the lines Of everything I want and I want to find, one of these days What you thought was real in life somehow steered you wrong Now you just keep drivin' tryin' to find out where you belong I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone That's the same road, that same road that I am on What you thought was real in life somehow steered you wrong Now you just keep drivin' tryin' to find out where you belong I know you feel helpless now and I know you feel alone That's the same road, that same road that I am on 3 __

[24 Mar 2005|02:20pm] I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight And after three long years, I think that we both need this So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss And in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day And you sweetly retire as stars chase you away I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead But all the while my lips are whistling our tune But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon And in case you, and in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet Now tell me this, do you know how we'd meet? And in case you were wondering, you are everything to me (to me) __

[23 Mar 2005|04:57pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | New Found Glory + My friends over you ] So last night was FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN.. with a capital FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN... I had to go to the hospital because I thought I was seriously dying... My side hurt so bad and it started going into my stomach and it was making me really sick.. i was a really sick little girl... So i went to the hospital and I had to get blood drawn and an IV.. which was not fun.. I remember last time I went to the hospital and watched someone get an IV and they almost passed out.... loser... So after that I had to get a Cat Scan and some shit and my dad said that I had air bubbles in my iv and that i was gonna die from it.. and blood was comming through it because my battery was dying and it was just a big mess..so after sitting there for like 3 hours they told me that I have kidney stones and thankfully they were smaller than 5 millimeters so thank the lord for that.. so im done drinking pop.. because thats prolly what it was caused from.. I got some lovely vicoden.. i dont know what i would do without pain killers.. i prolly would have shot myself in the head.. ummm other than that everythings been peachy keen with me... I started talking to my brother again and were gonna hang out on friday and shoot the shit and drink some beers prolly.. i might not though.. OH i think I peed out my stone today too.. and umm I have to pee in my moms coffee strainer........ lol.. Funnnn.. so i heard this song.. and of course it made me chuckle a little bit because this one person thinks i picked my friends over him... whatever, atleast i got the last word. I’m drunk off your kiss For another night in a row This is becoming too routine for me But I did not mean to lead you on And it’s all right to pretend That we still talk It’s just for show, isn’t it It’s my fault that it fell apart Just maybe You need this And I didn’t mean to Lead you on You were everything I wanted But I just can't finish what I've started There’s no room left here on my back It was damaged long ago Though you swear that you are true I still pick my friends over you (My friends over you) Please tell me everything, That you think that I should know About all the plans you made When I was nowhere to be found And it’s all right to forget That we still talk Its just for fun, isn’t it It’s my fault that it fell apart Cuz maybe you need this And I didn’t mean to Lead you on You were everything I wanted But I just can't finish what I've started There’s no room left here on my back It was damaged long ago Though you swear that you are true I still pick my friends over you (My friends over you) Just maybe you need this You need this… And I didn’t mean to Lead you on You were everything I wanted But I just can't finish what I've started There’s no room left here on my back It was damaged long ago Though you swear that you are true I still pick my friends over you maybe youll like that song.. cuz i do... 5 __

[22 Mar 2005|05:56am] [ mood | pensive ] [ music | crossfade + cold ] Looking back at me I see That I never really got it right I never stopped to think of you I'm always wrapped up in Things I cannot win You are the antidote that gets me by Something strong Like a drug that gets me high What I really meant to say Is I'm sorry for the way I am I never meant to be so cold And I'm sorry about all the lies Maybe in a different light You could see me stand on my own again Cause now i can see You were the antidote that got me by Something strong like a drug that got me high I never meant to be so cold I never really wanted you to see The screwed up side of me that I keep Locked inside of me so deep It always seems to get to me I never really wanted you to go So many things you should have known I guess for me theres just no hope I never meant to be so cold __

[22 Mar 2005|05:39am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | 3 doors down + here without you. ] bye bye beautiful. __

[21 Mar 2005|09:16am] One more kiss could be the best thing But one more lie could be the worst And all these thoughts are never resting And you're not something I deserve In my head there's only you now This world falls on me In this world there's real and make believe And this seems real to me You love me but you don't know who I am I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand And you love me but you don't know who I am So let me go Let me go I dream ahead to what I hope for And I turn my back on loving you How can this love be a good thing When I know what I'm goin through 2 __

[09 Mar 2005|05:38am] [ music | SheDaisy + come home soon. ] basic info [x]name: Felicia. [x]age: 17. [x]location: wouldn't you like to know..? [x]education(grade): umm, i dont even know that. [x]single/bf/gf: boyfriend. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~* your views on- [x]abortion: Under the right circumstances, Im for.. But just because some Patty pooper hoe wants to get pregnant and use abortion as a birth control, Im against. but I would personally never get one. [x]same sex marraige: Seriously, If people think thats wrong because their the same sex... what if majority of people like in congress and stuff were gay.. then it would be different.. why let people get married anyways.. because if ur gay and want to marry the same sex, u should be able to. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~ [x]republican or democrat?: which one isnt bush?... like hes republican i think.. so im a democrat i think.. im not sure. [x]favorite color: it has been pink for the longest time.. but i think im leaning more towards fucsha today. [x]favorite movies/bands: Um.. i dont feel like typing it all out. [x]your ethnic backgrounds: Im french and german i guess. my dad doesnt know what he is. [x]list 3+ talents: fuck that, i dont have any. [x]favorite line from a movie/song: umm.. theres so many. i dont know. [x]biggest pet peeve: prolly my sister. [x]3 random facts about you: I love Ashlee Simspon, I have my nose pierced, and I can only write in black pen. [x]what do you think of the mods?: who? [x]describe yourself in 5 + adjectives: Spunky, hyper, curious, um.. loveable, whatever i hate adjectives. [x]make us laugh: i cant think, im singing. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~ [x]give us a 100x100 pic for our accepted/rejected list : i couldnt find one :/ sorry. [x]now post at least 3 clear pics or yourself: nope. 10 __

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